Your Health

I have been working in the healthy field for nearly half of my life. I am learning being a nurse that many people really do not care about their health. They are afraid of death but give a crap about the maintenance of longevity of their life.

Examples I deal with many illnesses. One is diabetic. Many diabetics come in with HI glucose (sugar reading). Some will tell you it is always high. Some will tell you that they don’t take their medications. Some will tell you they have not went to dialysis in weeks. Many will request for food and sugary juices if not eat it infront of you while you are poking their finger to retain blood. I just don’t understand. Why freak out if you are going to live your life doing whatever you please. Some people are losing limbs, cry about it, but eating habits have not changed.

Gouts… when a person has gout they should not be drinking any beer or alcohol. They actually have a certain dietary restriction. Tell me why every two weeks I am injecting a few of my regulars with anti-inflamationary compounds. Them, themselves, know the cause of it but was hoping eating/drinking a little of their dietary restrictions would not inflame their gout.

The list goes on but let’s end it with sexual disease. There is nothing wrong with sex. There is nothing wrong with having more than one sexual partner. I am not going into the moral if married or in a relationship. To each their own. All I ask for and I think is common sense is to protect yourself any mean necessary from bodily fluid. I have witness people learning they have HIV and had to be on 24 hours watch to make sure they do not commit suicide. I have seen pt who shows up ever few weeks complaining of their cheating spouse, lover, or boy/girlfriend but still stay with that person and continue to have unprotected sex. I have heard stories which was shared with me from these pt. I don’t judge anyone one of them. It is not my place to judge but to help the best I can and give them my suggestion of protecting themselves from bodily fluid.

Finally Finished

At work it has been crazy busy. So busy my feet been on fire for days. Even with having off days. The days I would use to rest my feet are no longer working. I can’t wait for surgery. Just want to be normal again and do the things I use to do.

I have been working on my New Year slide show videos for weeks. As I do every year. This year I was just a bit unmotivated or maybe just tired. Below I will share my youtube slide show of all the photoshoots I had taken this year. Some of the shoots were from my cancer project in which I am still working on. Hoping to finish up next year.

That said Happy New Year everyone!

Pain

Facebook have a way to remind you of things you have forgotten, lol. Reading a post from 8 years ago made me shed tears. It was a post of one of the happiest day of my life. A day for some odd reason I have put in my vault of “to be forgotten and move on”. That shows how time passed and life moved on. But it reminds me that when a person is in a relationship and going through pain. It is never that one person who is experiencing pain but both of them. One might show it more than the other. But both are dealing with the pain in their own ways. Never forget that. You are never experiencing pain alone. Others are too but are dealing with it in their own way.

Randomness

This week was crazy! Wish I had time to write in the moment how I felt at the time instead of now…chilled. I am learning to stop feeling sorry for people. Because some people lie. Sadly, one don’t know that they are a liar until they try to lie on you! Like what the ……

Loneness is sadness. But being kind might help.

It always feels strange when at work people thank me for being kind. My response is you’re welcome, but really no need to thank me for me being me. I think it take more energy to be mean. So why not use less energy and be kind.

My job is killing my foot! Every week I am investing so much money into foot care, accessories, meds, and even began an inflammatory diet since I am not supposed to take NSAID. My foot dr told me that I need to ask for time off if not quit my job and look for another. Asking time off is out of the picture. Reason is because I have only been working at the company for 3.5 months and my foot is in pain more so when I am back at work. At home I am in pain but not excessive pain as when I am at work.

Love Amazon policy! But sometimes some sellers are ridiculous. Today I received a damage box with $160 shoes worn and scratch up all over. Excuse me! Nope sending it back right away. I have not problem purchasing a shoes that has been worn but come on not shoes that have tons of scratches and look like it loss the battle.. I passed.

Long Time no Write

Oh wow, I have not been on this site since 2017. So many things have happened since then. I lived in Turkey for a few years. It was a beautiful experience. Learned to be a minimalist. As I seen people around me that hardly had nothing content with their lives and I have almost everything and wanted more. Which was a baby. Hubby and I have been trying for 18 years. Trying almost killed me twice, yes. Eventually I learned to accept that no one can have it all in life and the ones who have it all feel like they still do not. Just be happy with what you have. Currently I been in the state for almost 3 years. I am still a photographer but also a nurse. Something I tried doing 20 years ago until I had a panic attack. This time I had a full support system I allowed to help me and succeeded. I had support system back then too but me being too proud never allow them to help me mentally. See I have grown through out the years..

At the moment there is a lot of things happening around me that I just want to write to get off my chest. I am not looking for comments/feedback. I want to use this space for my outlet. So when ever I write it will be about things that happend that day or week. It might be a few sentences. As I mentioned this is for me. For all my old followers and old friends. Yes, I think about you many days. The ones in America and the one in Germany. We shared our lives via in emails. I have not forgotten yall at all. I promise. I honestly think of all of you in particular two of you often. You know who you are. I hope all is well in life.

Okay time to take a two hour nap before going in to work. I love my job but it stress me out even before going in. As I never know if we are going to be short staffed or not. Being a nurse short staffed in a ER room is horror!

What’s Going on with Me

  Nothing much to be honest. My world is repetitious. I am still focus on my photography and my health. I have lost approximately 224lbs. I have 24lbs more to lose to be at my target goal. To be at physician target goal would be a bit more. But I am not aiming to be skinny. I am working out and eating healthy daily to be healthy. To not have joints problems and to be completely off my blood pressure pills. So far so good. It takes lot of tears, dedication, and sweat. Progress does not come fast as you want it or work hard for it but it does comes.

I have been socializing a lot. More than I have ever done in my life. Sometimes it feels like work but at the end of the day it all end well with two people or more enjoying each other time.

So what is going on in Turkey. Honestly nothing. Turkey is like any other country. It has it good days and bad days. At the moment it is election time. Hayir (no) and Evet (yes). Don’t ask what both stand for. I try my best any where I live to stay out of political discussion. It is good to understand what the debate is about. But I have no interest to voice an opinion.

I take photos daily of Turkey more so with my cell phone as I go for a walk to get in my steps. Once I organize them a bit I will post photos of Turkey to share with you. Just wanted to let you all know I am still living either though I been really quiet on here. And that life is still good. Naturally with bumps in the roads but nevertheless still good. Also would like to wish all of you a wonderful Easter holiday if you celebrate it or using the time to finally relax a bit.

Take care WordPress….until next time!

Goodbye 2016 Hello there 2017

Last year was a good year for me. I live as always in a foreign country. For 2016 it is Istanbul Turkey. Since living here I have learn how wasteful of a person I am. Each day I encounter someone who could be in need of what I over buy or have thrown away. Therefore, I am always giving when I can. I don’t over buy things any more. I buy only what is needed. If I have too much of things such as food I share it with people who are less fortunate and also fortunate as I. Make no sense to buy things just for it to get spoil.

Last year I have lost 187lbs by eating healthier, walking 5-15 miles everyday, working out 1.5-2 hours in the gym 5 days a week, playing soccer, a great dietician who is also a friend, and just having a change of thinking. Because I have lost so much. I have donated 9 full garbage bags of clothing in the clothing bin near by. I am proud not only to lose the weight because it is not easy. But to be able to help others. I still have 64lbs more to lose but you know what I am loving the me right now. I will get to my goal maybe Fall if not Winter of this year.

Photo wise I am still doing great. I have been published a few times again last year. I have taking photo of Miss Earth Austria 2015 for her portfolio when she was here in Turkey. It was a great honor to capture her beauty and also Daniel Wallerberger. Both Austrian models. Before I get too chatty I leave you with a video from all my shoots of last year on youtube “Lora Victoria Fotografie-New Year-2017”. Just encase the link does not show you can find it on Youtube with that title. I hope that your new year is starting off great fill with love, happiness, and success! https://youtu.be/6KfgYGSJnCc

Always with love,

Lora Victoria Fotografie

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Dieting is like another Job

I swear I hate to diet and yes doing something everyday will turn into a habit that it no longer feel like work. But at the moment it feel as that to me. All I think about daily is food! What should I eat, that I have been doing meal plannings to keep myself organize. Which help me to avoid eating so much crap. Exercising daily and switching it up so that my body can rest a bit.

Some days I just want to say forget it and I have to remind myself how hard I work and in due timing I will reach my goal sometime next year. Feel like forever but time always fly.

Last week I have met one of my mini goal weight. Which is always a 20lbs lost. Some people do 50lbs as a mini goal. I do 20lbs. It does not take forever like 50lbs, lol. Each mini goal hit I change my hairstyle to symbolize a new me. Each mini goal I feel exhausted. I beat up my body so much from extreme exercising, sports (I play soccer),  and very long walks. Eating to darn healthy that I think my body goes into shock when I bite a piece of chocolate, lol, seriously. Therefore, after each mini goal I reward myself by resting a bit. Doing lite work out. Eating a nice size steak now and then and enjoy a scoop of ice cream if not a pack of Reese’s Peanut Butter Cup. I do this just for one week. So that the body can go back to a normal state and do what ever it needs to do internally. Then the following week I go back into beast mode. Crazy I know but it work! The body needs time to do what it needs to do to repair it self. It can not lose weight each week non stop without some type of damage. And as I mentioned after my mini goals my body feel extremely exhausted and yes I do take vitamins and I rarely take in caffeine. My body is just tired.

I need to get out of here and get dinner for the hubby for later, a new phone card package, while I get in some fresh air walking slowly in the heat. No power walk this week. Just an enjoyable people you can walk around me walk, I am in no hurry 🙂

Have a great day WP. I leave you with my new look at being 278lbs. Never in my life would I be happy to be at this weight. But coming from 430lbs (when I seeked help….only God know if my weight was higher because I literally stop weighing myself for years until I met my dietician in Germany).

278lbs and proud. Have a long way to go but in due time I will get there no matter how long it takes!

Keeping Focus

I have not wrote on WP the longest but I have been reading on and off many blog posting when I have time. Many of you know that I have move to Istanbul Turkey and will be living here for a few years.  In the beginning as all move I was a bit bored and depressed. But as I started to explore and learned the area I felt like me again.

I have met a few people I can call a friend to chit chat and hang out with and also a few associate. Some have blessed me with their beauty in front of my camera and the other blessed me with their company meaning to be able to hang out and kick the breeze if not heat, lol.

I truly love it here. It has it good and bad days just like so many places. But we all must live and move on; and not think too much of the what ifs.

I have also been keeping focus of my health. My health have been going down hill for a long time because I literally gave up on life and stop caring. One day I snapped out of it and cried like a baby. I had needed to learn how to re love myself and the body that I carry around. I seek for help with the support of my husband. Found a German dietician that spoke  English and she helped me with rethinking of what food mean to me. Allow me to eat what I like but with portion control and most of all she was understanding to my feelings. She actually listen. With her help I lost 30 lbs moved here and found another dietician that speak English also and have lost the total of 152lbs.

Losing weight is freaking hard work, very exhausting, and not at all easy as gaining. I literally work out every day, weight training and aerobic. I have no day that I can say I do nothing. Because then I want to be lazy again the next day. Therefore, my rule to myself is atleast one hour of exercise per day no matter what it is. My max is 8 hours.

My husband as just enter the room and disturb my thought process. Might be a good thing as it look like my post is getting long. Just want to write really that I will start blogging again. As usual blog when I am emotional..happy, sad, frustrated, and etc. I won’t turn off my comment section as I normally do. Just encase if I can help someone with also losing weight or etc. But I can’t promise I can answer right away. Because I honestly don’t have my computer turn on then twice in the week. Everything I do internet wise is with my cell phone. Below I will post a photo of a before and after. Not current. I have lost maybe 30lbs since I made these photos into collages. The young lady next to me is one of my dear friend who allowed me to capture her beauty that day. Have a great day WordPress!

Dark Beauty Magazine

Yet another publication I am so proud of! Last weekend I woke up with joy to see both on Instagram and Facebook my photo “Manoym” was publish online Dark Beauty Magazine. Last year and the year before has been blessed years for me. This year it is starting off the same. Normally I let the model share the good news, but this model is not on Facebook so I shared it instead.

It was a wonderful surprise when I whatsapp the model with screen shots of both platform ratings. He told me congratulation and I told him no, congratulation to us! My dream has always been to be in Vogue magazine. I don’t know if I will ever make it but know what, I am going to enjoy the process trying!

Wishing you all a great week!

Lora Victoria Fotografie