I swear I hate to diet and yes doing something everyday will turn into a habit that it no longer feel like work. But at the moment it feel as that to me. All I think about daily is food! What should I eat, that I have been doing meal plannings to keep myself organize. Which help me to avoid eating so much crap. Exercising daily and switching it up so that my body can rest a bit.
Some days I just want to say forget it and I have to remind myself how hard I work and in due timing I will reach my goal sometime next year. Feel like forever but time always fly.
Last week I have met one of my mini goal weight. Which is always a 20lbs lost. Some people do 50lbs as a mini goal. I do 20lbs. It does not take forever like 50lbs, lol. Each mini goal hit I change my hairstyle to symbolize a new me. Each mini goal I feel exhausted. I beat up my body so much from extreme exercising, sports (I play soccer), and very long walks. Eating to darn healthy that I think my body goes into shock when I bite a piece of chocolate, lol, seriously. Therefore, after each mini goal I reward myself by resting a bit. Doing lite work out. Eating a nice size steak now and then and enjoy a scoop of ice cream if not a pack of Reese’s Peanut Butter Cup. I do this just for one week. So that the body can go back to a normal state and do what ever it needs to do internally. Then the following week I go back into beast mode. Crazy I know but it work! The body needs time to do what it needs to do to repair it self. It can not lose weight each week non stop without some type of damage. And as I mentioned after my mini goals my body feel extremely exhausted and yes I do take vitamins and I rarely take in caffeine. My body is just tired.
I need to get out of here and get dinner for the hubby for later, a new phone card package, while I get in some fresh air walking slowly in the heat. No power walk this week. Just an enjoyable people you can walk around me walk, I am in no hurry🙂
Have a great day WP. I leave you with my new look at being 278lbs. Never in my life would I be happy to be at this weight. But coming from 430lbs (when I seeked help….only God know if my weight was higher because I literally stop weighing myself for years until I met my dietician in Germany).
I have not wrote on WP the longest but I have been reading on and off many blog posting when I have time. Many of you know that I have move to Istanbul Turkey and will be living here for a few years. In the beginning as all move I was a bit bored and depressed. But as I started to explore and learned the area I felt like me again.
I have met a few people I can call a friend to chit chat and hang out with and also a few associate. Some have blessed me with their beauty in front of my camera and the other blessed me with their company meaning to be able to hang out and kick the breeze if not heat, lol.
I truly love it here. It has it good and bad days just like so many places. But we all must live and move on; and not think too much of the what ifs.
I have also been keeping focus of my health. My health have been going down hill for a long time because I literally gave up on life and stop caring. One day I snapped out of it and cried like a baby. I had needed to learn how to re love myself and the body that I carry around. I seek for help with the support of my husband. Found a German dietician that spoke English and she helped me with rethinking of what food mean to me. Allow me to eat what I like but with portion control and most of all she was understanding to my feelings. She actually listen. With her help I lost 30 lbs moved here and found another dietician that speak English also and have lost the total of 152lbs.
Losing weight is freaking hard work, very exhausting, and not at all easy as gaining. I literally work out every day, weight training and aerobic. I have no day that I can say I do nothing. Because then I want to be lazy again the next day. Therefore, my rule to myself is atleast one hour of exercise per day no matter what it is. My max is 8 hours.
My husband as just enter the room and disturb my thought process. Might be a good thing as it look like my post is getting long. Just want to write really that I will start blogging again. As usual blog when I am emotional..happy, sad, frustrated, and etc. I won’t turn off my comment section as I normally do. Just encase if I can help someone with also losing weight or etc. But I can’t promise I can answer right away. Because I honestly don’t have my computer turn on then twice in the week. Everything I do internet wise is with my cell phone. Below I will post a photo of a before and after. Not current. I have lost maybe 30lbs since I made these photos into collages. The young lady next to me is one of my dear friend who allowed me to capture her beauty that day. Have a great day WordPress!
Yet another publication I am so proud of! Last weekend I woke up with joy to see both on Instagram and Facebook my photo “Manoym” was publish online Dark Beauty Magazine. Last year and the year before has been blessed years for me. This year it is starting off the same. Normally I let the model share the good news, but this model is not on Facebook so I shared it instead.
It was a wonderful surprise when I whatsapp the model with screen shots of both platform ratings. He told me congratulation and I told him no, congratulation to us! My dream has always been to be in Vogue magazine. I don’t know if I will ever make it but know what, I am going to enjoy the process trying!
Wishing you all a great week!
I have not been writing for a while due to life happening. I want to take a moment to wish everyone a happy holiday and a wonderful New Year! Let 2016 be all that you wanted out of 2015 and much more!
Below is a video I made of 2015. Some of the photos you will see in the video was in magazines publications this year. 2015 was truly a wonderful year for me with a lot of success. More than I could imagine. I am truly thankful for everyone who came into my life and helped me to where I have gotten so far. Forever grateful!
I am so getting use to Turkey and is enjoying many of the weird and awkward moments. There are so many places and things to see. My husband tell me to explore not only on the weekend with him but also in the week instead of doing boxes. I be darn if those boxes are still out by the time the New Year kick in! I want to see the beauty of this place and start inviting people over for dinner. I miss our little dinner parties.
Since I have been here, I have been doing street photography. I plan to make a photo book of Turkey for family members and ourselves in the future. I love street photography! Do you know when I first start taking photos it was street photography, nature, and objects. In Germany I was too busy and focus to do much street photography. Now I am taking the opportunity to do so and loving it! Like for example last weekend I did night photography. Night photography is the bomb! I love the illumination of the lights and the atmosphere.
I have so much photos that I am sharing on my Facebook photo page. I think starting tomorrow I will upload one photo everyday except for the weekend. I am not a weekend uploader. So if you are interested to see all that I capture behind the lens you are welcome to swing by.
Also last week I have been getting some nice emails of people interest in hiring me for weddings for next year and photo shoots for Christmas presents. Another a young lady who would like to assist me and learn at the same time. I guess like an internship. I was like wow. I wouldn’t knew all this if my web developer did not email me to check my business email. I had announce to everyone on my private page, public page, and etc that I will be moving here for three years. I was not expecting anyone to write me requesting to hire me for anything. Last week I felt good that people like my work enough to write me to hire me to take their photos. This was my highlight of last week.
With that said, I am about to start my morning with some boxes. Have a great week WordPress!
photo credit: http://vi.sualize.us/y_lips_lips_red_y_picture_D5xr.html
There is nothing wrong about feeling sexy when you are home alone, lol, I am so serious. I have told a few of my friends this and the first thing they did was laugh when I said that. Seriously, sometimes being at home taking care of the little one(s) or being a house wife can be depressing….some days. You can’t wait on people to give you happiness or to make you feel sexy. “You” have to do it for yourself!
My answer to that is get out the house and get some fresh air, go shopping, hang out with a friend, take the children to the park, or go exercise. All these activity would force you to put on clothing, make up your face and hair. But when stuck at home you are slumming around in your pajamas or nothing at all looking comfy crazy. My answer to that is girlfriend place on a sexy panty, if you like pantyhose place that on too or alone:) find a bra that make your breast say helloooo. Make your face up. Place some music on and do your hair. Spray on some perfume. Turn off your phones so no one interrupt your process. If you have a child set that child infront of tv show for 30 minutes (normally I am against this, but when mommy need time out to take care of herself do what you got to do that won’t harm the child). Place on a top with jeans that show your curves if not then a dress that make you feel sexy. So when you pass your reflection you smile at that hot momma you see! And when the hubby or partner come home they can go “wow, where did you went today” or just enter your home with a smile. Don’t forget accessories. Accessories accessories I will always say…bling bling, lol. Seriously do the complete look. Do it for you! Do it for your self esteem! Baby you are beautiful! No matter what size you are and what flaw you have. We are all human.
Quick note to guys, this note goes out to you too! The only difference would be groom yourself to how you like it, take time out for yourself, spray on some cologne. I would hate to say put on clothing. Because I find a man sexy in boxers and a muscle tshirt….hot! But put on what make you feel sexy and follow the rest of the direction above. You are worth it! You are hot!
Wishing you all a great sexy day and weekend!
Lora Victoria Fotografie
Today I cooked stuff bell pepper and a lot of filling (bulgar rice and mince meat) left over for tomorrow dinner to use with an egg plant, and the day after to eat with string beans. This is the first dinner I made since here when I don’t count the pot of instant soup, lol. Yesterday was the first breakfast which was egg, toast, and sausage.
Been a long day today but a good day. Tomorrow should be fun and interesting meeting up alone and chatting with new people. Nervous as usual but I am sure I will be okay. Good night WordPress